The Aftermath.
I'm currently under tremendous amount of stress, hey school hasn't started.
Some i zi zao one, some maybe naturally. my first chinese word in my blog lawl.
Sandwiched between 4 big, not problems, but matters.
I might just leave vulgarities anywhere part of my post so don't blame me for that, hahah
so vexed.
Guess more pimples to come

1
Hey. I dont really know what you want serious. i cancel "unimportant" outings to make you a little happier. i dont really need to say that all the time. ah okay la you dont appreciate okay i cant do a shit. okay even if you do, well, thanks. i do things willingly eh, not showing what kinda sulky faces. eh i stay at home sometimes for bondings la ha if you dont know. you will never read this ah but maybe sometimes k ah, my problem. i cause trouble and stuff but just sometimes limpei really dont know what you really want, like NOW. im like so damn screwed. my left hand holds fire, my right hand holds some unbalanced elephant, my left leg is being hung on by some infant, my right leg is gone. im so damn stucked. but no matter what you are someone i must respect so what i've done wrong or make you unhappy than sorry. i say this willingly, SORRY.

2
Eh people sorry la ah, cant join you guys in sentosa, cant make it for movie, i guess i cant even meet you people up for dinner. wholeheartedly sorry. maybe when school starts we can do some catching up. okay this might look small problem leh, but still i think it should covered back some time later.

3
Wah for this one i need to say a million times sorry again. i look like i've killed someone's mother, murder someone's father, burnt someone's house lawl. That can i can't make it for steamboat, than today i dont think can make it to movie, maybe still can join a bit for chilling la ah. next week onwards that say might not meet up so often already, aidan is gonna start work lol. but still today really cant go for movie hahas, sorry ah people think you will understand one la ah. sorry again.

4
Okay this one. Most crucial yet unable to resolve by a sorry or whatsoever. Just wait for time to pass, hope for miracles or what. maybe let you off more? hahas scary bodo! lol. i know its stupid and full of excuses but i dont think im good in handling such stuff. okay doesnt mean like i forever dont wanna handle ah, but just dont know how to start. im afraid later do or say wrong things jialat. but i also wanna say a wholeheartedly sorry here again.
k i screw occasions up.
thats summarised.
an occassion that means a lot to you. it means a lot to everyone else also, its birthday.
im not trying to dig out what la ah, but just feel that maybe i shouldn't be there.
eh come on its just one side of thinking LOL so hope those who read doesnt get offended
not trying to say "aiya now you say all this for what" but hahas, a thinkback la ah.
Those who read this post might just read more about this section lolol. hahas its just some random guessing la ah.
all i can say is i want to redeem myself asap, also sorry for those who are there at that time trying to help out. im really thankful.

Okay i guess im almost done for this post. i sound like some emo shitz OMFG!!
Im not and dont use to be an emo bastard. I DONT WANNA BE LOL
Im slowly becoming one holy fuck!
i always tell others to smile more and fuck myself, cause i dont.
To myself: i think......my spots must be widen.
smile la ah :)